FLA 7

Chapter 20

The next morning after a night of well deserved sleep Jon was the first to wake up. "Baby are you awake?" he almost whispered afraid of actually waking her up.

"Mmmm" She moaned while rolling over to sleep more.

"Guess that's a no." he smiled then got out of bed and walked over toward their luggage. He quietly unzipped the bag, moving pieces of clothing until he found the jewelry he had been searching for. "This should wake her up." After taking care of his needs he climbed back into the bed with his wife and had the jewelry in his hand.

Dot felt the bed dip and knew that Jon was back, she rolled over and cuddled back to his chest.

"Good morning."

"Morning honey." Dot kissed his chest not wanting to move.

"Did you have a good night?" he smiled moving her to her back.

"Yes, you were here." She smiled. "Hold on honey I'll be right back." Dot quickly got up to take care of her most urgent needs and brush her teeth, when she returned she stayed naked and crawled back into bed with Jon. "OH much better."

"Close your eyes Dot."

"Can I have a kiss first?" She smiled.

"Just one." he smiled.

Dot smiled and kissed him softly enjoying the feel of his lips again. "I love you Jon."

He only smiled then reached over on the night stand to get two pieces of the body jewelry. He started teasing both her nipples by flicking his tongue over them, then sucking on them slightly.

"Oh I like this Jonny, what a way to wake up."

Once he got her lost in the moment he reached over for the nipple rings clipping both of them on as gently as he could.

Her eyes opened wide, "JON!"

He was sitting on his knees in between her legs wearing nothing but a smile."That would be me!"

"OH you shit, do you like how this looks?" Dot kept closing her eyes as the sensations in her nipples were causing her body to react slightly. The smile on Jon's face was causing more of the problem though.

"Mmm hmm."

"Jon, why are you getting hard honey?" She smiled looking at the evidence of his pleasure. "What turns you on so much about this?"

"I didn't realize how damn sexy that would be."

"Really?" She tried to look down and see what he found sexy but she just saw her nipples with jewelry on them, nothing spectacular in her view.

"Yes really." He leaned over so that he could softly kiss her stomach while his hands roamed over her breasts.

"I like the look in your eyes Jon."

He raised up just long enough to make eye contact. "You do huh?"

"Yes." She smiled running her hand on the side of his face.

"You look like you're having fun."

"I haven't started with the real fun yet." he looked over toward the night stand to see the other pieces of jewelry.

"OH really what else do you have in mind Mr."

"You'll have to wait and see."

"Come here." Dot smiled and pulled Jon down on top of her for a kiss.

"Aren't we eager this morning." he laughed.

"I just love my husband." Dot smiled and reached around and smacked his ass for good measure.

"Normally I would be all for an early morning spanking but I have other business to attend to." He sat up on the bed so that he could get the ring for belly button. "Would you consider really doing this again?"

Dot looked up at him. "OH a belly button ring? Sure honey. They don't hurt."

"What about here?" he asked while moving his thumb over her clit.

"OH shit, now that one I've never thought of. Wouldn't that get in the way for you though?" She smiled hoping he wouldn't like something interfering when he wanted to hang out down there.

He shrugged his shoulders showing a bit of a smile. "I guess we'll have to try it and see. Besides that it's supposed increase the pleasure for you."

"Oh I like pleasure." She smiled wondering if he was going to clip something on her belly button or farther south.

"I'm all of for adventure." he grinned. "Are you?"

"Sure, I know you won't let anything hurt me."

"If it bothers you tell me." he replied lovingly as he clipped the jewelry onto her clit. "Okay?"

Her eyes just about fell out of her head. "OH GOD" Dot took his hand and moved it to her pussy so he could feel how wet she was getting quickly. "Need you- NOW"

He moved himself into her with ease and began increasing his thrusts after just a few seconds, something he hadn't done in a while.

"Jon, its pinching we need a new position." She wiggled under him.

He sat up on his knees and held onto her thighs as pushed himself into her. "Better?"

"OH God yes." She moaned, her body reacted out of pure lust right now.

Jon wasn't feeling any difference in the ring but he could tell by the look on his wifes face that she was in pure heaven which made him even more ready to please her.

Dot knew Jon wasn't feeling anything different so she took his hand and brought it to her clit. "Tease, see what happens." She offered. He moved his thumb across her just to see exactly what would happen, because if the ring alone was giving her that much pleasure he couldn't imagine what that would add to it.

"OH GOD" Dot screamed as her body instantly flew into orgasm, gripping Jon's cock tighter than she has in days.

"SHIT!" Jon moaned louder than he had in years. "God baby you are so good." he grunted pushing himself deeper inside of her.

"More, push harder, Jon GOD Fuck me!" She moaned, never talking to Jon quite that explicit when they are home with the family.

The words she had just said encouraged Jon that much more, he couldn't remember the last time she had been that vocal with him.

"Jon -please, more baby" She moaned coming down off the first orgasm.

"My pleasure baby." He began making long slow strokes by pulling out to only have the tip of his cock inside then sliding back in all the way.

"Jon- baby more." With that Dot does something she hasn't done to him in forever, she actually moves and pushes him onto his back. She crawled on top and let his body slide deep inside her as the clit ring hit the top of his pelvic bone. "OH - Oh" She moaned as she moved back
up away from his body. Again as she got his cock deeply seated inside of her, his body and the ring collided. "OH" She moaned and pulled away.

He was taken back by the sudden action of his wife and swallowed hard before calling out to her "Dorothea"

"OH Jon" She moaned still trying to push herself to further pleasure but scared to. She looked at Jon in the eye.

The blue eyes were giving her the assurance that she was okay. "Honey I'm yours."

"Jon, Oh so intense" She moaned still moving her body down just enough that the ring touched his skin and moved slightly causing the intense sensation. She quickly shot back up his shaft. The feeling of his cock inside her she enjoyed, it was home but the sensations on her clit were
out of this world.

"Let yourself go babe." He placed his hands on her hips moving her so that she was receiving every sensation imaginable.

"Jon- oh so, oh Jon" She moaned not able to verbalize what she was thinking.

She was still gripped around him so tight all he could manage were moans of pleasure. This was one of their most intense times together
than he could ever imagine. His head was filled with lust but he still managed to keep his hands on her hips helping to help guide her.

Her body arched so far that her head almost touched the bed behind them. This caused the clit ring to rub against his body again. "OH JON!"

His hips began to move uncontrollably as he tightened his grip on her curves, he was close to one of the biggest orgasms he'd ever experienced.

Dot couldn't control herself anymore, she squeezed as hard as she could on Jon's cock as she pushed herself down on him with equal force. Her mind and body exploded together as she fell forward on him exhausted. "OH GOD" She moaned as her body tingled everywhere with the sensation.

Jon lifted his head just enough to look then let his head fall back onto the pillow "That was by far the best sex we've ever had." His chest was still moving erratically as he came down from the high he had just had. Knowing that she was exhausted he let his roam over her back gently until they both regained enough energy to move.

Dot reached down and tried to take the clit ring off but her hands were shaking to much. "Jon can you oh fuck, can you take it off."

"Yeah." he laughed reaching down to unclip it then stared at it for a second. "Who would have thought this little thing would cause such a stir." he smirked.

Dot couldn't even be bothered to look at it right now she was still in the throws of exhaustion.

"Baby are going to be okay?" he smiled not remembering the last time he saw her like this.

"Someday." She moaned, "I can still feel you." She smiled.

"I think I'll be feeling the effects of you for the next week."

"I think I died a little." Dot smiled and then rolled over onto his chest, letting him feel the nipple ring that was still in place.

"What a way to go though huh?" he closed his eyes and smiled when he felt the ring touch hm. "That is such a turn on for some reason."

"What is baby?"

"The nipple ring, maybe its just the feel of cold silver against me. Plus it's incredibly sexy on you."

"I don't think I'd like to actually pierce them but whenever you want me to wear one just clip it on or let me know. If you like it thats what its for."

"I wouldn't want you to get the permanent. It would take the fun out of it I think."

"What just because its new you like it more?" She smiled her brain starting to function now."

"You know me well." he laughed.

"Besides I hear it hurts like hell when women do that"

"After 30 yrs Jon. Yes I do. Do you want me to leave them on today?"

"Nah" he reached down and unclipped each one of them. "Maybe we can clip them on later tonight."

"Ok, hey they are sore, wanna kiss them make them better." She smirked.

"Since I was the cause of it, it's only right." he smiled moving down to kiss the swell of her breasts.

"Oh feels much better." She smirked rubbing the back of his neck. "So what do you want to do today honey?"

"You."

"Didn't you just do me?"

"Yeah but I'm ready for encore." he smiled. "Maybe."

"Alright your on rockstar." Dot smiled, loving that he just wanted her no matter what.

"Would you like your little ring back on?" he smirked.

"Not just yet baby, lets try one time without it." She couldn't take that intensity again. She needed a little down time.

"Little Jon is happy either way." he joked before moving himself to the one place he was always comfortable.

Dot smiled leasureally up at him. Having him on top of her just seemed right.

"I love being here with you right now."

Dot softly brushed at the hair on the corner of his temple. "I love being with you Jon. Its our time and its so special." Her lips quickly found his for a relaxing tender moment.

Before the kiss reached that next level of intimacy Jon pulled away so that he was able to look into her eyes. "How would you like to go out for a night of dinner and dancing?" He loved her dearly and knew that she always did like dancing even though he was never very big on it, but for her he would give it a shot.

"Really?"

"If you want."

"You really are trying to give me everything aren't you? How about dinner and we come home and dance, that way when I get really turned on by it I can just seduce you." Dot offered, pleased that Jon even offered, since it wasn't something he enjoyed she wasn't going to force it, it was the offer that counted to her.

"Are that embarrassed by my dancing that you want to come home and dance?" he smiled.

"Baby I know you don't like it but I appreciate the offer just the same, I want to dance with you but I don't need the world watching."

He replied while laughing a little "I don't want the world watching either....I have two left feet."

"But you can shake that ass with the best of them." Dot smiled running her hand over his ass under the blankets. She softly kissed him again loving the feel of having him home.

He returned the kiss then rested his body on hers. "I think I could get used to this." murmured placing his head on her shoulder and interlacing their fingers together.

"me too." Dot smiled and then frowned a bit. "You lost to much weight on the road this time. What's up?"





Chapter 21

He really didn't want to discuss anything but he knew that Dot wouldn't let it rest if he didn't. "I just couldn't eat." He told her honestly.

"Why?"

"Just because."

"Jon, tell me what's wrong with your stomach." Dot said sternly. She knew him well enough to know he carries his stress in his stomach and shoulders. She needed to know now why her husband laying on top of her felt twenty pounds lighter than he should.

He raised up off her to let her see the hurt in his eyes, after all she knew him better than anyone. Sometimes even more than he knew himself.

"Johnny whats wrong?" She softly caressed his face.

"I thought we were over." he told her sadly with the tears building up in his eyes. "I mean when I came home we hardly talked and rarely slept in the same room. And when we did that's all we did."

"Jon we're never over. We might be severely broken at times but you and I are forever." Dot told him and then realized she put her stuff in her car to walk out on him. "I suppose it doesn't help that I threatened to leave last week huh?"

"No it didn't, I honestly expected you to be gone with the kids when I got back this time."

"Jon I'm not chicken enough to leave that way. If I were to give up it'd be after a knock down drag out fight that went on for days. I'd never give up on us that easily. Yeah I was pissed when I packed my bag this time but we had been at it for almost a day by then and we weren't communicating. You absolutely never have to worry about coming home to that."

"Really?" he asked unsure if he could believe what she was saying.

"Yes really, I'm not that uncommitted to you that I'd run scared. If I ever get to a point where I want out seriously want out you'll know about it because we will have been discussing everything under the sun for days before I'll walk away. I'll do anything to keep us together Jon I think I've proved that over the years."

Jon rested his head back down on her chest comforted by her words. "I'm glad we can talk about this."

"Jon we can talk about anything." Dot smiled.

"I know but that was one of those things that I knew we needed to talk about but I just didn't know how to tell you. I guess I thought that if I had told you how upset I was you would have thought less of me."

"Why do you think that Jon. I'm not the rest of the world I know you have real feelings about things. I don't expect you to be happy all the time like they do."

"I know but I'm the man and I'm supposed to be the strong one." He sat up in the bed and leaned back against the headboard while running his hands through his hair.

"Jon I hate to tell you this, I know it ruins your image but you are human." Dot told him now sitting up looking at him.

"I know." he sighed looking out at the view from the bed. "It's just hard going from rock star that has no problems to John Bongiovi. You know what I mean?"

"Yeah I know, this isn't the first after tour I've been through with you. When are you going to start vocalizing this shit to me instead of tearing yourself apart with it?" Dot asked none to gently now she was pissed that he didn't talk to her, that he felt she was nothing better than one of the hangers on that he had to deal with daily.

"I didn't want to bother you. Look you are busy with the kids and your dojo, the last thing you need is my ass complaining about something."

That was the last straw for her it, Dot got pissed now and jumped out of the bed, stark naked. "You're my fucking husband Jon you get to have a voice in this marriage." She then turned around and pulled clothes on none to gently. "Dammit I can't believe you, after all this time, after all these years, after everything we've been through you still don't feel like you deserve me or this marriage?"

"Dot that's not what I meant."

"Then what did you mean? You better start talking Bongiovi."

"I just mean that the whole time we've been married you never once took us for granted....I did. And I guess that part of me just didn't think that I had a right to complain about anything because of that."

"You silly man." Dot walked over to the bed and straddled him.

"When I said I forgave you I did. So you have just as many rights as me at all times."

"So you are giving me permission to bitch?""

"You've always had it. Just make sure you have a solution as well as a complaint."

"My solution is fight then have great make up sex." he smirked then leaned over to kiss her softly.

"If I gave you sex 24/7 it still wouldn't be enough."

"No probably not." he laughed. "Maybe we should add another day to the week?"

"My husband the sex fiend ladies and gentlemen." Dot laughed. "Ok seriously lets go feed you, you're to skinny."

"I was just thinking the same thing. Suddenly I have my appetite back." he smiled.

"Ok come on get up," She then got out of bed and smiled as he looked down at his crotch. "Not that way, get out of bed and meet me in the kitchen." Dot then left the room roaming around the house before coming to the kitchen. Luckily she found it fully stocked.

Jon pulled on a pair of cargo shorts and a black tank top before heading down to find his wife. The place was just a little smaller than the mansion in NJ but it didn't make things easier to find for him. He walked downstairs and looked in four different rooms before finally finding his wife. "Geez that takes me back to when I was a kid and we hid around the house." Jon joked as he poured himself a cup of the fresh brewed coffee.

"You mean you don't have a homing device on me." She smiled as she cut some vegetables for dinner.

"No." he took a sip of his coffee then looked at her rather strangely. "Can you actually do that?"

"I thought you just always knew where I was." She smiled and started pealing potatoes.

"For the most part I do." he smiled as he leaned his back up against the counter watching her.

Dot took 2 steaks out from the fridge that were left on a plate for them. "Will you put these on the grill for us?"

"Sure, if I can find it." he laughed grabbing some barbecue sauce and a few spices. Dot smiled softly watching him walk out to the patio. She loved the quiet time like this that they spend together.

Once he was outside Jon surprised himself by actually getting the grill lit by himself. Normally Dorothea had to get the one going back in NJ, he always swore that she set it so that he couldn't light it. He laughed to himself as he put the spices on the steak and tossed them on the grill. "Well that was easy enough!" He picked up the plate carrying it back into the kitchen then washed his hands.

"Wow you got it going all by yourself?" She smiled playfully.

"I did thank you." he laughed. "And I have you know I didn't even burn myself this time." he replied proudly as he hopped up on the counter.

Dot moved slowly to stand between his thighs, she then put a snow pea in his mouth. He looked around the counter. "So what else are we havin'?"

"Potatoes and mixed vegetables cooked on the grill with that steak. You ok with that?"

"Fine with me." He wiggled his eyebrows. "So what's for dessert?"

"You."

"Really now?"

"Well if you play your cards right." She smiled and kissed him.

"And if you play your cards right you have the chance to have whipped cream licked off every inch of that body." he smirked then jumped down off the counter.

"Oh you'll do that anyway. Go check on our steaks." She slapped his ass.

"Confident aren't we?" he laughed walking back outside.

"I know you well." She smiled.

A little while later Jon came back into the kitchen and found Dot staring out the kitchen window which had a view of the pool in the back. "Find something interesting?"

"Peace and quiet." She smiled. "How are the steaks?"

He walked over behind her and wrapped his arms around waist while his chin rested on her shoulder. "Should be done in a couple of minutes."

Dot rested her head back against his head. "Jon this is what its all about."

"It is nice huh?"

"It's exactly what I need right now Jon. I need this after a tour." She told him, almost like she is the one that has the after tour blues.

"Me to, but we should probably be going back to the patio if you would like an unburnt steak." he smiled reaching down for her hand.

"Ok head back take these plates, I need to grab the rest of the food." She had put the veggies on the grill earlier and already removed them.

"Do you need me to help you?"

"No I'm good just get the steaks."

He shrugged his shoulders then walked back out to the patio where he had a few candles sitting on the table along with a bottle of wine.

Dot walked out a few moments later with the rest of dinner. "Are you missing the kids yet?" She asked softly.

"A little I guess." he replied as he took the steaks of the grill and carried them over to the table. "You don't want to go back home yet do you though?"

"Hell no." Dot said out loud before realizing how that sounded. She laughed as she sat down. "That didn't sound too horrible did it?"

"Not at all baby." he laughed.

"Sorry, I'm with this all the time I love just being with you."

"Good to know." He picked up the wine filling up both of the glasses. "You know I love our kids more than anything but sometime I miss just us."

"I think we need this from time to time lover. We need to just be a couple every now and then." She lifted her wine glass. "Here's to the love of a lifetime."

He smiled lifting his glass to hers. "To us."

"I'm thinking that after we renew our vows, we should take a real honeymoon, what do you think?"

Dot smiled looking at Jon's ring. "Will you honestly wear that forever now?"

"We never did get a honeymoon did we."

"Nope." She answered but waited for his answer to the other questions.

"Damn work always got in the way." He began cutting up his steak into pieces while still talking to her. "And to answer your question it's a yes. Well unless you wanted to get a new set for the vow renewal."

"I think I'd like that. One that we pick out together, that match and we both agree on." Dot said knowing the first set of rings were kind of picked out haphazardly.

"You would really give up our original set?" he asked a little disappointed. It wasn't the money part of it because he would buy her anything she wanted but he had a sentimental attachment to his.

"Not give it up as much as move it to my right hand and the new set on my left hand. I didn't think you cared about the ring." She pushed him to explain.

"I already explained that.....remember when we had the argument about me not wearing it on stage?"

"I know you said its special but why? I didn't give it to you at our wedding or anything."

"I know but you picked it out for me."

"Just like I picked your out"

"Its up to you. We can just get these cleaned and polished and handed back to us or just an anniversary ring."

"If you want a new set that's fine baby."

"Jon just because I'm an emotional nut case doesn't mean you have to give in to me all the time."

"I know that but 99% of the time you are right."

"Jon you have a voice, didn't we discuss this earlier."

"Yes we did but when mommas not happy nobody is." he joked hoping that she didn't toss her plate into his lap.

She put her fork down and looked at him. "Seriously?"

He sat there staring at her unsure what to say, either way he could end up sleeping alone.

"Jon?" She asked.

"Yes but that's the way it always was when I was growing up." he turned his head squinting his eyes preparing for the worst.

"What? Where did that come from?" Dot was completely confused by him.

"What?"

"How does your life growing up have to do with if you seriously want a new ring or why your current ring is sentimental."

"That was my reply about if you aren't happy nobody is. It was the same way when I was a kid....if mom wasn't in a good mood we all just kind of hid all day."

"So you're telling me you hide from me when I'm not happy."

Geez will I ever learn to keep my damn mouth shut! "No that's not what I meant by that."

"Well then what did you mean?" Dot asked him.

"Never mind Dot." he just shook his head and started eating his dinner.

"Jon why do you think you are in trouble?" She asked sitting back from the table taking a drink of her wine.

"Because I always am." he pouted moving the vegetables across his plate.

"I'm done." Dot got up with her glass of wine and walked back into the house. Where the hell this defeatist attitude came from she'll never know but she hated it.

Jon watched as she walked out he knew that he had upset her. "Why the hell did I ever get married?"

She exited the other side of the house and stripped, instantly baring her body to the sunset and jumped into the pool.

He got up and walked back upstairs toward the bedroom not even caring about the dishes that were left outside. Once upstairs he sat down in the chair beside the window when he noticed her down at the pool. He knew that by the way she left earlier he better just keep his distance and let her have her space.

After Dot swam about 15 laps she got out of pool and went back into the house to go up to their bedroom. She walked into the room and immediately walked into the closet. When she returned to the room, this time in one of his soul t-shirts she looked at him. "So what happened?"

He shrugged his shoulders while still looking out the window.

"I'm not going to fucking talk to your back Jon."

He finally turned around to face after a few minutes. "Is this normal?"

"What? Miscommunication between married people." Dot answered.

"That and all the fighting lately."

"I don't know Jon you're the first person I've had a 30 year relationship with." She reminded him.

"When you say that it makes my question look really stupid."

"Well Jon honestly how would I know. This is new for both of us. I don't want to fight with you I'm just lost as to where your thought process is." Dot explained sitting on the corner of the bed.

"You can't possibly know because I don't even know. I don't mean to make you upset thats the last thing I want to do."

"So just answer the question I ask you instead of trying to put on a front. No one is watching you Jon there's no image to uphold here. I just want to know how a piece of metal that you barely ever wore became something sentimental to you."

"I don't know what it means to you but to me I guess its just a symbol of happiness. I mean to be perfectly honest with you before I had it I was miserable.....yes I had you and we did have a bond but once I got this ring it changed things. I knew that I was complete...."

"Then honestly why didn't you ever wear it? That's what's not making sense to me Jon."

"Because I didn't want to lose it! Didn't you listen to me before?" he asked rather angrily. "I know that you say we'll just get another one if it slips off during a show but it will never be this ring Dot." he pointed to his wedding band. "This was a ring that you picked out for me with me in mind."

"Why are you so angry with me for not believing that reason Jon? Honestly look at this for one moment from my point of view. Take yourself out of your own head and look at it from sidelines and what do you see?" She challenged him to try to see things differently not something he easily does.

"Look I see what you are saying about other musicians wearing their wedding bands on stage, and I can't speak for them or tell you what they are thinking. I can only speak for myself Dorothea."

"Ok Jon." She said as she swiftly stood and walked out onto their balcony overlooking the back of the house and the ocean. What was truly going on with them?

Jon hung his head and sighed walking onto the balcony and leaning up against the banister. He didn't know what else to do to please her.

Dot didn't say anything she wanted them to be on track and they seemed to be this morning and then tonight everything got messed up.

While leaning against the railing Jon began twisting the wedding band around on his finger then looked over toward his wife who was just a few feet away. "Are we going to be okay?"

"Yes we are." There was no other option, 19yrs of marriage and 29yrs together was not something you give up on. "We built this relationship Jon it takes both of us to keep it standing but we'll figure out a way. We've been here before."

They had been there he couldn't disagree with that but they never argued this much before which really concerned him. He wanted to work things out with her that was a given, so he began moving closer to her until they were finally side by side.

"What do you see as the issue here Jon?" Dot asked him looking towards him.

"That I have a hard head?"

"Stop blaming yourself we are a couple you know."

"Yeah I know, but it's always my mouth that gets us in an argument."

"Did you ever stop to think its your attitude that annoys me more than what you say?" She asked softly.

"My attitude?"

"yes, please don't take this wrong because I'm probably going to stumble over my words." She took a step back and then stepped in front of him and took his hands. "For years, when you'd come home you were still larger than life and confident as the day is long. Over the past 8 yrs or so, when you come home, I don't know if its because you're getting older and its harder for you to do everything on stage, or if there's another reason, but you doubt yourself more now. I love your swagger Jon. I love knowing that my man thinks he rules the world." Dot took a deep breath. "Its easy for me to boss the kids around, and my employees at the dojo, but I find it kind of unappealing if you take that from me. I want to be the woman in the relationship Jon. When you approach conversations with me and say you're always the problem, that just perpetuates that attitude." She shook her head, "This isn't coming out right."

Chapter 22

He stood there staring taking in every word she had said, and she was right. He had changed over the course of the years. He didn't know how it happened or why but his confidence had been taken down a couple of notches.

"Is it something I did that took your confidence away around me?" She asked.

"No it's not you Dot." he said softly still tossing the words around in his mind.

She looked up at him with tears threatening to fall. "Then what?"

"Do you know how many relationships split up recently?"

"Yeah, I've been here, but that's not us baby."

"And I don't want it to be either. I guess without even realizing it I started doing things a little to cautiously, I would do anything I could to keep you happy."

"Then all you need to do is stay Jon, my Jon, the man I fell in love with a thousand years ago." She kissed him again, using the softness she knows he loved so much.

"I will."

"What else needs to be discussed while we have the door of communication open?" She asked softly.

"There always has been something I've always wondered and it's always really bothered me."

"What is it?" She asked.

"When we were going through our rough time....and you were with that guy." he paused not even believing he was asking her this but he wanted to know. "Did he come to the house?"

"No, Jon I'd never do that."

"So you never brought him into our bedroom?"

"Hell no. That's ours. Have you ever brought someone in there?" She figured turn about was fair play in this line of questioning.

"No....never."

"So its sacred." She smiled.

"You are the only woman I want in my bed honey."

"Good. I like that answer."

"how about that." he smiled. "I finally got one right!"

"Here's another one you can get right. How many kids do we have?"

"Four"

"And in NJ it's what time?"

"I dunno, I guess around 9 pm?"

"Maybe we should call them and wish them goodnight." Dot missed her kids but she didn't want to say it like that to Jon. She just told him how she loved being with him, it was just hard for her to not tuck them in at night.

"Sounds like a good idea. You know when we get back I'm going to start reading stories to Jake and Romeo."

"Sweetheart those two will probably tell you stories." She laughed.

"You think?"

"Especially Romeo he's very theatrical." She laughed reaching for Jon's cell phone and hitting 1 send.

"Oh he is quiet the entertainer." Jon smiled waiting for someone at the house to pick up.

"Hey dad." Jake says by way of answering the phone thinking it was Jon.

"Hey Jake its mom not dad. How are you?"

"Oh we're good, no deaths here." He laughed.

"Hey Jakey! Are you being good for Nana?"

"Hi dad, we're all good" He smiled talking to his dad.

"Have you boys been keeping the guys away from your sister like I asked you to?" he laughed.

"No she closed the door on us." Jake said and then handed the phone to Jesse without telling anyone.

"Jake are you there?" Dot asked.

"It's Jesse....the little brat just handed me the phone."

"He's not a brat Jesse he's just younger than you. How are you?" Dot smiled, this testosterone era has got to be coming to an end soon.

"Good, I guess. Are you and dad having fun on your love fest?" he snickered.

"Yes we are as a matter of fact." he smiled kissing his wife.

"I want mommy, daddy - me too!" Romeo hollers behind Jesse as Jake told him they were on the phone.

"Hold your horses Romeo I'm talking!" he rolled his eyes at his younger brothers. "Mom, can we just give them away?"

"No I love you all and I had so much fun making you. Don't you want another sibling?" She teased him.

"Ewww!" Jesse handed the phone to Romeo. "You can talk to em'"

Dot smirked at Jon. "HI Romeo. Mommy and Daddy miss you."

"Hi Daddy!" he shouted in the phone still not knowing he doesn't have to raise his voice.

"Hey little man. You enjoying your time with Nana?"

"Uh huh......where is my mommy?"

"I'm right here sweetie. Are you having fun?"

"Jesse is means to me." Romeo pouted.

"Why honey?" Dot asked.

"Him took my cake at lunch."

"We'll talk to him when we get home ok?" Dot smiled.

"Okay mommy....bye daddy and mommy." He reached the phone to Stephanie but you could hear him shouting in the back ground. "Jesse mommy say you in trouble!"

Dot laughed to Jon. "Good to know I have so much power."

Jon laughed hearing his youngest son, they all reminded him of the times he spent with his brothers.

"Yeah I told you earlier it's all about momma." he smirked.

Dot laughed waiting for her daughter to pick up the phone.

"Hey mom!"

"Hey kiddo, how is everything over there?" Dot smiled.

"I'm about to string up my brothers. Dad can you make them behave?" Steph asked.

"My son's are perfect angels Steph."

"And that haircut looks good on you." Steph laughed.

Dot found it very hard not to laugh at that one.

"Steph that was not the least bit funny." he looked over at Dot and shook his head.

"Sorry dad but you're meant to have lighter hair not that dark." Steph smiled. "Hey did you write us a song yet?"

"Not yet baby girl....you mom has been keeping me busy."

"Sure dad. Nice story mom's sweet and innocent like all women." Steph laughed. Every since she spent the day with her dad laughing with him is even easier.

"Yes she is." he replied with a huge smirk on his face.

"See stick with me dad you'll go far."

"I guess so Steph." he smiled.

"Well treat her right dad, don't make me have to lay the smack down." She smiled.

Jon just laughed at his daughter. "Did she just say smack down?"

"Yes honey she did." Dot laughed.

"Well I guess since you just threatened to kick my butt I'd better treat her well then huh?" he laughed.

"Yep, always listen to your baby girl daddy. Hey have you ever heard Anita Cochran?"

"Can't say that I have"

"She's got some cool songs dad you should check her out, her tone and pitch get to me. The melodies somewhat suck but I like her voice." Steph said.

He was listening to his daughter and she seemed to know exactly what she was listening for which amazed him at her young age. "Do you have her cd? Then I can listen when your mom and I get back."

"Yeah I burned it from Stacey's dad."

Jon just rolled his eyes. "You know if people just bought a few cd's of the band and burned copies for their friends you wouldn't have that nice house."

"Dad back when you were around the technology didn't exist. Besides you haven't given me my allowance so I have no money to buy the cd."

"Yeah well technology sucks. And as far as you not getting an allowance its because you haven't cleaned your room in 2 weeks. And having Jake do it doesn't count!"

"Why not its capitalism? You pay me and I hire him, I'm keeping the economy going." Steph laughed.

Dot looked at Jon and just smiled, "She's your daughter."

"I can't really argue with that." His daughter was going to be one hell of a business woman one day.

"And on that note, I love you both have fun." Steph laughed and hung up.

"How does she do that?"

"What turn your own wisdom around on you?" Dot laughed.

"That and always get the last word."

"She's you on estrogen." Dot laughed.

"Damn, is the world ready for that?" he laughed.

"No." Dot laughed and wrapped her arms around Jon and smiled. "Ok I've talked to the kids what else is on your mind Mr."

"You wanna go out on the beach for a while?"

"Sure." She smiled. "You gonna seduce me or just romance me?"

"We'll see where it leads." he grinned walking over to the closet and getting a couple of beach towels.

"Alright sexy, lets go."

"Should we take something to drink?" he asked when they walked outside the door and he was over come by heat.

"No we're fine." She smiled taking his hand.

"I don't know I think I'm going to grab a water. You want one?"

"OK."

Jon ran back into the kitchen to grab two bottles out of the refrigerator then ran back outside. "Here ya go."

"Thanks baby." She said, looking up at the sunset. "Look at how beautiful that is."

"Yeah it is." he placed his hand back into hers and started walking down toward the ocean. "I can't get over how quiet it is here."

"Quiet enough to restart that engine of yours."

"Definitely." If there was one thing he needed it was just to relax for a while so he put the towels down side by side and laid down on his back with his arm supporting under his head.

"Is there room on that blanket for me?" She smiled at him.

"There's always room for you Dot."

Dot smiled and moved down on the blanket with him, laying down next to Jon, not needing to even touch him.

He just laid there just staring out at the ocean enjoying the slight breeze that would occasionally flow over them. This was perfect to him, he had his best friend by his side and the quiet that he had needed.

Dot knew that Jon didn't need any talking, she knew he needed the quiet to unwind. She looked out at the ocean and saw the enormity of the world around her and knew that she wasn't alone and that made her smile even bigger.

Jon glanced over at her occasionally and saw her smile which made him wonder what she was thinking. At one point he reached his hand over to her and started running his fingers over it softly.

Dot smiled and enjoyed Jon's simple touch. She still didn't talk she simply allowed the night to progress.

"Dot?"

"Yeah baby."

"Do you ever wonder what it would be like if I wasn't who I was?"

"Meaning what honey?"

"You know if we didn't have the things we do. Like the house in Jersey and the summer house in the Hampton's. Could we make it with normal jobs and a family?"

"I'm sure we could. I'm not sure we would have had 4 kids if you weren't who you are, money wise it'd be a hell of alot tighter but I'm sure we'd survive and make it." Dot assured him. "Jon it was never about that, its always been about you as a human being. You as my man."

"Yeah I know that. I guess I just think about stupid stuff huh?"

"No its not stupid, its odd that you'd ask me after all this time but its not stupid, I don't know where it comes from."

"I have alot of time to think on the road and I just think about random things like that."

"What other random things do you think about?" She smiled kissing his shoulder.

"Crazy shit mostly."

"Well tell me, this is the part of you I crave when you aren't here."

"I don't know......this last time I thought about what it would be like if I had been a mechanic instead of a rock star." he laughed.

"Honey you'd have to know how to fix stuff to do that." She laughed.

"Exactly! I would have been screwed."

"What else, come on Jon what's on your mind?"

"Aside from the silly things like that I wonder what the kids think about me."

"They love you. They idolize you. They want to be with you as much as they can."

"I know that's the problem. I've been gone most of their lives, what if they don't think I love them enough?"

"They know Jon. Jake wants to be you. He runs around the house with his fake guitar and swings his ass, and when I ask him what he's doing he says - me like daddy"

"Really?"

"Yes he's always shaking his ass and grinning huge. Just like you." Dot reinforces.

"Is he as cute as I am?" he smiled.

"He is." She smiled. "I hate to tell you babe but you helped create a boy even cuter than you."

"Damn it!"

"Hey you can be happy that you helped make him." Dot teased.

"Oh I am! That two minutes was incredible." he replied playfully.

"You shit - Jake took 4 minutes." She smirked.

"So good I lost track I guess."

"Brat!"

"What? That was a compliment to you."

"Four minutes isn't a compliment, to love me properly Mr. it takes all day and night." Dot smiled.

"You know what I mean baby." he reached across the blanket taking her hand into his.

"I love you Jon."

"I know." he smiled then leaned over to kiss her on the cheek. "I love you to."

Dot rolled over and rested her head on Jon's shoulder, allowing him to just be.

Jon took her other hand and placed it over his heart while they were lying there on the beach. "Every beat is for you."

"I love the side of you that you're showing me now."

"What do you mean side? This is who I am."

"I know but sometimes you don't let me see this, sometimes you close up to protect yourself and it leaks over to me. I love that you aren't hiding this side from me."

"I don't mean to keep it from you. I'm really trying to open up baby."

"I know honey, I'm saying I appreciate that."

"I wish we could do this on the shore back home?"

"Its easier here, its safer somehow."

"Yeah because nobody knows where we are so that means there's no one hiding in the bushes. Those are the times I wish I was normal."

"Which is very nice." Dot smiled. "So where is the family vacation going to be this year?"

"Jake and Romeo have been driving me nuts to go to Sea World again."

"But its family time not just Jake and Romeo time." Dot laughed.

"But they are part of my family." he smiled

"You wanna go to Sea World don't lie."

"Actually I do."

"IF that's what you want to do and we can get the other 2 kids buy in its golden with me."

"What if we do this? We go to sea world and Disneyland for a week. Then we let Jesse and Steph pick a place for a week. Then mommy and daddy pick the last week?"

"I think mommy and daddy get to pick 2 weeks." Dot smiled.

"Sounds good to me!"

"3 weeks?" She asked trying to get a longer family vacation away from the world.

"No it would be four weeks. Do you think Steph and Jess will go for it?"

"IF you pick Nashville or something musical she'll be with it and I was asking for a total of 5 weeks 3 that we get to pick."

"Sounds fair to me." he smiled pulling her closer.

"4 weeks?" She wanted to keep trying for more.

"Five if you want, unless you want more than that?"

"More." She smiled larger than life.

"Don't you get tired of me?" he joked.

"Hell no. I don't see you nearly enough to get tired of you."

"You will be."

"Never, I love you Jon Francis Bongiovi Jr more than the sun and moon and all the stars." Dot smiled and rolled over on top of him kissing him all over the face.

"It's good to loved." he smiled wrapping his arms around her tighter. "Now Dorothea Rose, where would you like to go for vacation?"

"Right here. I know it has to be warm so this fits the bill." Dorothea smiled at him.

"Here as on top of me here?" he laughed "Or here as in bring the kids here too."

"Well on top of you is always a great place."

"I couldn't think of a better place you should be."

"Its settled then." Dot layed down on his chest. "I'm staying here."

Jon closed his eyes content having her there in his arms.