FLA 17

Chapter 45

When he let go off Richie's hand he turned back towards Jon. "Mr Bongiovi, would it be okay if Steph went with me to my grandpa's next week to ride horses?" He asked only because Stephanie had encouraged him to.

"Her mom and I haven't discussed yet but I don't think it will be a problem." There was something about this kid that made Jon want to trust him but another part of him was telling him that he was a typical teenage boy.

"Dad come on what's to discuss? It'll make me smile." She smiled at her dad hoping that she woudl get her own way.

"I know and I love to see that smile but we still have to talk about it."

"Come on Chris lets go back by the water." Steph took Chris' hand again and walked away from her dad. When she figured they were out of ear shot. "That's the uncle I told you I'd call last night and he gave me all kinds of information."

"He seems pretty cool to."

"He's the best. He even told me what comes after kissing, you still interested?" she asked playfully.

"Oh definately!" he replied a little anxiously.

"He said we do touching, first its our backs and butts."

"Really? Then what?"

"He said we touch anywhere and everywhere while kissing even where my bikini covers and your swimsuit covers but we do all that above our clothes." She told him. "And we don't touch anywhere else until the first place we touched doesn't cause us any kind of what'd he say uneasiness.

"Sounds like we have alot of practice to do then." he smiled devilishly before placing a small kiss on her lips as they sat down on the bank.

"So I think that we should try to touch as much as possible right?" She smiled.

"Sure.....but here?" he asked looking around but really couldnt' see anybody because they were actually down over the bank.

"Just a little, maybe 10 min and then we'll go back so dad doesn't come looking."

He laughed just a little then leaned over toward her. "Where do we start?"

"Right here." She smiled and kissed him.

He was caught of guard a little and fell backwards which made her almost land on top of him.

"OH thats the way you want it." She laughed and kissed him again still laying half on top of him, running her hand on his upper chest and shoulder.

He was smiling hugely while they kissed and began moving his hands around her sides and on her back. Of course that feeling was coming back again and with her lying the way she was had to feel it. But if she didn't say anything he wasn't going to either.

Stephanie didn't know if she should be scared of that so she moved her lower body off his and kept kissing him. She'd have to ask
Uncle Richie about that part getting hard.

When she moved off him, he moved to his side and moved his hand down towards butt moving it slowly over her.

"Is that okay?"

"Yeah feels good." She smiled. She kissed him for a few more moments until she heard noises. "Hurry get in the water I think my dad's coming." Steph shed her shorts quickly and they got into the water waist high and she smiled "dunk under and come up quick." They both did that and start splashing each other as Jon and Richie came over the embankment.

Jon looked at both of them rather suspiciously because he hadn't heard any splashing until they had gotten there. "Hey guys you're mom wants everybody back at the house."

"Ok dad, do you happen to have a towel?" She asked.

"No but we have some at the house." he told her. "You shouldn't have came down here without one if you knew you would get in the water."

"Well I wasn't planning on it dad." Steph got out of the water in her swimsuit leaving Chris in there for a little bit hopefully he calmed down. "He tickled me and I had to escape." She smiled and put her shorts back on.

He looked over at Richie with an arched brow and less than believable smile then looke back at his daughter. "You guys just get back to the house."

"Ok dad. Come on Chris." She moved to grab his hand keeping herself between Chris and her dad.

Jon and Richie both walked ahead of him up to the pool where the other kids were already in the pool.

"You ready for all my brothers?" Steph asked Chris.

"Can't be any worse than my brother and sister." he laughed.

"Mom did you miss us we're here." Steph laughed as they got to the pool.

Dot didn't know why Steph thought that she had been looking for her but when she saw Jon's face she knew. "Yeah Ava is here I wanted you to say hi."

"Who's Ava?" Chris asked still having hand intertwined with hers.

"She's my fake sister. Uncle Richie's daughter." Steph told him.
He nodded then glanced over into Jon's direction. "I think your dad is pissed."

"NO he's just being dumb. I think he's having a hard time with me growing up." Steph said and then Ava came running over. "HI Steph."

"Hey Ava how are you? This is my boyfriend Chris."

"Chris you're cute. Oops." Ava smiled and jumped in the pool.
His face turned about ten shades of red right after she said that.

"You wanna get in the pool?" he asked feeling the need for some cool water.

"Sure." Steph dropped her shorts again and jumped in the pool head first.

He took of his shirt and put it beside her shorts then jumped in.

"They are fine Jon, just kids stop giving him that look." Richie warned Jon as he also jumped in the pool and snuck up on Ava. "Gotcha."
Jon shook his head knowing they were doing a little more than just being kids, he had that same look on his face that Chris did the first time Dot's dad walked in on them.

Dot walked up behind Jon motioning for the kids to be quiet and pinched Jon in the ass and then pushed him in the pool.

When he came up from the water all he heard was laughs then he turned around to find the culprit then smiled. "That was rude!"

"hi honey." Dot smiled standing before him in a swimsuit. It was a one piece but she knew he'd like it cos it showed skin, any amount of skin, made him happy.

He swam over to the edge trying to get a peek of how much the back of the swimsuit showed. "I've never seen that one before."

"I bought it when you were in Geremy. You like?" She turned around to give him the full view.

"very much so!"

"Good." She jumped in the water near him and kissed him.
He pulled her body near him so that he could talk to her without being noticeable

"I think our daughter was up to no good earlier."

"Really why do you say that?" She asked softly.

"Because went I went down to the river with Rich it was all quiet but I stepped on a twig in the yard, and a few seconds later we heard splashing."

"Maybe they were kissing." Dot laughed. "God forbid like you've never kissed anyone.

"No I think a little more than that was going on."

"Do you remember that look on my face when your dad caught us making out the first time?"

"Yes you turned white, it was funny."

"Ha ha thanks for the concern you had when you pushed me away." he joked. "But that kid had the same damn look and I know they were up to something."

"So what, she was kissing him, maybe they were doing a little more, she knows where to stop doesn't she Jon?" Dot kissed him then thought twice, "You did talk to her didn't you?"

"When have I had time to talk to her? I'll do it tonight." Jon pulled her closer. "Besides I thought you already had this talk with her."

"I told her about periods and her boobs and mood changes all that girl stuff, I thought you were talking to all the kids about sex."

"Fuck." he muttered looking over toward his daughter who was just a few inches away from her boyfriend. "I'll talk to her after everybody leaves okay."

"Ok. Just relax she's not brave enough to do to much this fast." Dot told him and kissed him. Just then Jon felt tugging on the bottom of his swim trunks.

He glanced down into the water when he saw Jake slowly swimming back up "Hi daddy!"

"Hey when did you learn to swim underwater?"

"Couple days ago." he smiled. "What are you and mommy doing?"

"Talking about how great and big our kids are getting." Dot told him.

"Kay" he laughed then swam over to his older brother.

"He couldn't wait to show you that." Dot told Jon.

"Damn when I left he had just learned to swim."

"He's more of a fish than Jesse ever thought of being, can't keep him out of the water."

"I guess that's a good thing." he replied watching all his kids together and how big they had gotten. Jon put his head on Dot's shoulder and pretended to cry. "Why are all of my babies growing up?"

"Because that's what they do. We love each other, we create them and forget about each other for a while and watch them grow up, but as they do they remind us how much we love each other so when they leave we have our love again."

His hands slid down her sides and around her back slowly. "Do you think that tonight we can show each other how much we love each other?"

"OH baby every night." She smiled and kissed him. Looking over Jon's shoulder she saw Chris look around and then quickly kiss Steph before dunking under water.

"you know I'm not gonna let you forget that right?" he smiled returning her kiss.

"Like I ever tell you no." She laughed.

"You might get crazy and tell me that one night." he joked.

"Maybe, in my old age." She laughed just as Jake same between them underwater. "You might as well go swim with him he won't quit until you do."

"Your not going to let daddy spend time with mommy are you?"

"No cause she gets to play wit you all night."
Jon smiled up at Dot like if only this kid knew.

"So its your turn then?" Dot smiled.

He leaned in and kissed her just barely parting her lips with his tongue then swam away with Jake.

Dot laughed she kept and eye on the men and all the kids until Hannah swam over. "So how's life with Richie?"

"Doing better now actually."

"Good, did you give him an answer yet?"
She rested her elbows on the pool so that she could keep herself out of the water instead of floating around. "I did and I told him that I will accept his proposal. You know that night he asked me just kind of caught me off guard."

"So where's the rock girl?" Dot laughed

"It's actually in my purse right now, I didn't want to get it to wet. Not to mention I probably would have sunk." she laughed.

"SAMBORA!" Dot called for Richie.

Richie and Ava both swam over. "Yes!" They laughed.

Dot smiled, "you both are smartasses you know that." She then looked directly at Richie. "We're good right, you understand what I did?"

"Yeah we're good. I still don't appreciate what you did but she told me that you said a few nice things too. So we're okay Dot."

"Can we talk, alone I want to make sure we're good Rich." Dot really did value him, after all these years Richie has become her brother too.

"Sure." He smiled turning to Ava. "You stay out here with Hannah and I'm gonna go talk to Aunt Dot okay."

"Ok, can I dunk Uncle Jon?" She asked her daddy.

"Sure sweetheart whatever you want." he laughed getting out of the pool.

Dot got out of the pool too wrapping a towel around her waist. This was hard but she needed to know that Richie understood. "Ok, first of all I'm sorry you got hurt by something I did because that wasn't my intention at all."

"I didn't think that you did it on purpose. Besides it wasn't all your fault, I mean she mainly got upset when she started thinking about her husband......well you know, the one that passed away. She said she felt like she was cheating."

"That's gotta be really hard, I have no idea how I'd think of dating again if something happened to my butthead over there."

Richie turned around just at the time Ava jumped on him pulling him down in the water. "Well if it makes you feel any better that butthead thinks the same about you."

"Good to know." Dot laughed. "Richie honestly I told her more than a few good things about you. I didn't lie at all, I told her how loyal and loving and how you are greatest most genuine man I know next to Jon."

"She told me what you said after I confronted her about it, because at first she didn't come right out and say that you told her. I just knew by the way she was acting."

"I didn't tell her you're an ass Rich I need you to know that I just told her the facts, I couldn't lie to her when she asked me."

"I know Dot......trust me I know."

"I love you Richie you have to know that after all these years."

"Yeah I know." he smiled touching her on the shoulder. "I'm sorry I called Jon though cause I imagine he wasn't to happy when he talked to you."

"NO we had it out for a few hours."

"I figured as much and to be honest I actually regretted calling him."

"Its ok, nothing will ever get between us. So she finally said yes huh?"

"Yeah thank god because I was actually getting nervous about it."

"Are you really ready for this Rich? For being married to just a regular woman?" Dot asked looking over at the pool and seeing Steph and
Chris kissing. "Oh shit Jon's gonna flip."

"Huh?"

He turned around and saw the young couple. "Yeah I had to hold him back earlier."

"Well if he'd talk to her about sex maybe he wouldn't worry so much." Dot laughed and looked back to Richie. "We better get back bro."

"Yeah probably." he smiled reaching over to hug her. "You know I love you like the sister I never had Dot."

"Thanks." Dot smiled and took off her towel and jumped back in the pool by Chris and Steph. When she popped up she told them, "Go take a walk be back in 30 min for dinner."

Chris' eyes got huge when he looked at Steph because the last thing he expected was for her to give them alone time.

"Thanks mom." Steph swam over to the pool ladder and crawled out, grabbing a towel to wrap around her waist and handing another one to Chris.

"Thanks." he took the towel and dried off his hair the best he could then put it around his shoulders.

Steph smiled at him and waited for him to take her hand, when he didn't instantly do it she started walking towards the gate.

"Wait up." he ran over to her and wrapped his arm around her. "So where do you wanna go?"

"We can just walk around the side of the house, sit under a tree." Steph offered.

"Okay." he let her lead because he wasn't sure exactly where she was going.

Steph found them a soft shaded place to sit and spread her towel out. Luckily she had grabbed her shorts and put them on before she sat down so she wouldn't feel quite so exposed.

"I can't believe your mom actually let us go off."

"Well mom knows we're not going to have sex with 15 people at the house mostly kids. Dad hasn't quite got it through his head yet that along with growing up I have a brain."

While sitting there he reached over for her hand hoping she would accept. Maybe you should just talk to him and tell him that."

"I will after everyone leaves today I'm gonna sit him down and talk. I guess I shouldn't be mad at him, I heard him say something today that shocked me."

"what was that?"

"When you and I were leaning by the pool Jake my 2nd youngest brother swam underwater to him. Dad said to mom that when he left Jake barely knew how to swim now he can swim underwater. I guess it’s gotta be hard for him for us to change so much while he's gone and then for him to catch up quick."

"Yeah when you think about it that way I guess it is. He loves ya though." he smiled.

"Yeah he does." She smiled. "Do you think you could someday?"
He shook his head no then smiled at her. "I think I already do."
Stephs eyes opened larger than life. "What?"

His eyes were sparkling when he looked into hers. "I think I love you."

"Really?" Steph smiled and looked at him, "I think I love you too I'm just not sure I've never felt this before."

"I haven't either but I really like it." he smiled. "I couldn't even sleep last night because I kept thinkin' about you."

"Really?" Steph smiled huge. "What were you thinking?"

"Just wondering what you were doing and if you were thinking about me.."

"Is that what it feels like?" She asked him.

"Whatdya mean?"

"Well is that what love feels like or do we just like each other a lot?" She asked really wishing she knew the answers.

He shrugged his shoulders unsure exactly what it was he was feeling. All he knew is that he wanted to be with her all day everyday.

"Oh this feels so good." Steph smiled and kissed him again not seeing Uncle Richie come around the corner.

"Steph." He cleared his throat.

She jumped back and then smiled. "Uncle Richie."

"Its about time for dinner. You two might want to get back." He advised now understanding why Jon is freakign out it was hard seeing her old enough to kiss someone.

Steph jumped up and tilted her head. "Uncle Richie what does love feel like?"

Chris stood up beside Steph and looked up at Richie. "Yeah when you're in love does it make you stay up all night thinking about that person?"

"That describes both love and lust."

"Oh well then how do you know you are in love then?" Chris asked.

"When you know in your gut that the only thing that will make you happy is to make her smile."

He just smiled up at Richie knowing that's exactly how he felt about Stephanie.

"When her happiness and safety are more important than your own." Richie continues to see their reactions.

"So far we're good Steph." he laughed.

"Yeah we are." Steph smiled.

"Love is knowing that the other persons thoughts, desires, dreams, hopes, needs come before yours or equal to yours."

"What does it mean when you think about somebody all the time and you want to be with them every single day?"

"It means you like them and you are starting to deeply care about them and it could be turning to love. Trust me though guys you'll know, you'll be kissing and suddenly its like electricity shoots through your bodies but not to your sex organs this time it goes to your heart." Richie explained wondering why in the hell he's doing this and not Jon. "Come on if we don't head back Jon's gonna send out the National Guard."

"Yeah and I want to stay on his good side!" he smiled taking Steph's hand into his.

Chapter 46

Steph closed the door to the mansion with a smile on her face. She could seriously kiss Chris forever, well that or until his parents made them remember they were there. Now the task at hand, her dad. She walked into the living room and mom and dad were kissing, "Excuse me."

Dot stopped kissing Jon and turned to Steph. "Yeah honey."

"Can I please speak to dad - alone?" She asked maturely.

"Sure sweetie." Dot stood up and walked out of the room.

"I'm glad you want to talk because I wanted to talk to you to."

"Good, can I go first?"

"Yeah go ahead honey." Deep down he was happy because he wasn't quite ready for the sex talk with her right now anyway.

"Dad, I love you. You have to know that. I also recognize that its hard for you to adjust all the time to how much we've all grown up and changed while you were away but I need you to realize something, I'm 15 and while that means I have hormones and woman parts doing stupid things, it also means I have a brain thats more capable of what it was when I was 3 so stop treating me like I'm younger than Romeo and stop glaring at my boyfriend every 5 minutes. He'll never do anything to me that I don't approve of." She then exhaled shocked that she got that out in one statement.

He sat there taking in what she had said and she did make valid points but she was his daughter and he worried about her. "I know that you have a brain Steph I just get worried because I used to be a teenage boy and I know how persuasive they can be."

"Do you think I'm dumb?" She asked him.

"Not at all honey."

"Do you think mentally and emotionally I'm really 15? Or do you think growing up Stephanie Rose Bon JOVI has altered that a bit?" She challenged, mom always told her that dad respected and independent woman so here goes.

"If you take after your mom then you are very mature for age and are capable of making smart decisions."

"I am like mom in that regard but I'm 100% Bongiovi too which means I'm bullheaded, stubborn and determined too so I'm going to get my own way even if I have to work very hard to get there. Dad I'd like us to have a relationship where I can talk to you like I can Uncle Richie but right now I can't. I feel that when I tell you things you'll go postal on Chris and that's not what I need."

"You do have that Bongiovi blood in you." he smiled actually a little pleased she was sticking up to him. "I want that relationship to Steph but it's something we will have to work on alright. There's nothing more than I want to have a good relationship with all my kids especially you."

"Ok what did you want to talk to me about?"

"And what do you mean you talked to Uncle Richie?" Jon asked after the fact her words just catching his attention.

"What can you talk to him about that you can't talk to your own dad about?"

"Sex, making out, what love feels like, where I'm supposed to touch him when I kiss him. All of that, dad you fly off the handle and I don't want Chris to get hurt."

"You actually asked him that?" Jon asked a little hurt.

"Yes and he told me as much as he could. I'd rather talk to you about it but daddy you still see me with pigtails not the girl that has a boyfriend that I think i might be falling in love with."

"Falling in love?"

"We think so but we don't know, neither of us has been here before."

Jon smiled softly at his daughter then took in a deep breath. "You don't know what it feels like right?"

"No, will you tell me without going psycho dad?" She asked turning to face him more on the couch.

"I'll try." he smiled. "I've only truly been in love once and I can tell you that its the most incredible feeling you'll ever have."

"Yeah." She knows hes describing mom now.

"Well I was actually telling your mom this the other day, but I actually new she was the one for me before we even went out."

"How?" Steph needed to know.

"Personally for me, I knew that I loved her because every time I would see her around school or hanging out at the beach my heart would skip a beat. And when she smiled at me the first time......" he smiled thinking back and this was something that he had never even told Dot. "The first time she smiled I just pictured us being together and having a family."

"Really?" Steph smiled. "Did you feel like if you went a day without seeing her your heart would break?"

"Yeah I did. Do you know how many hamburgers I ate at the diner she worked just so I would have an excuse to see her?" he laughed

"Were the hamburgers even good?" She asked.

"Not really, but the waitress was exceptionally nice."

As he said that Dot walked by the living room and looked at him, reminding him he had to be dad here not just friend.

"Dad I think I love him." Steph admitted for the 2nd time that day.

"Does he feel the same way about you?"

"Yeah he told me first."

"Really?" Jon asked a little shocked because normally the girl said it first.

"Yeah we were talking about how cute you and mom are when you don't hide your love and I asked him if someday he thought he might feel that way about me and he shook his head no and told me he thinks he already does." Stephanie gushed with a young girl in love look on her face

He had seen that face on a couple of other girls, mainly the one that had just walked by. "You really like him don't you?"

"Yes dad I've been telling you that for 30 min are you just refusing to hear it?" She was a little upset with him she thought for sure he got over his issue.

"No I just meant.....I just saw it in your eyes Steph."

"He treats me so good, doesn't treat me different cos I'm your kid."

"That's good honey." he smiled putting his arm on the back of the couch. "Has he asked you to do anything with him? I mean something you didn't want to do."

"No."

"Steph this is the most awkward conversation I've ever had to do and your mom and I kind of got our signals crossed. I thought she had the sex talk with you but it was about all the female things."

"Well I can't help you cos I don't know what we're talking about."

"I know that and we need to have that talk."

"So talk." Steph told him not knowing what he'd say that Uncle Richie didn't already tell her.

"Do you have any questions?" he asked hoping she did because he damn well didn't know were to start.

"What comes after kissing?"

"After kissing?" He leaned back on the couch already uncomfortable and he hadn't even started talking yet but it was now or never. "Well normally after you kiss the next step is exploring each other's bodies."

"Do we just take our clothes off and look?" She asked trying hard not to laugh at how uncomfortable he was, served him right for treating her like she was 3."

"NO! Clothes stay on!"

"So you've never seen mom naked?"

"Steph." he looked at her with a serious expression. "I mean when you explore the clothes need to be on at least for a while until you get used to everything."

"So do I just touch him anywhere? When he kisses me I tingle all over, I never want to stop kissing him, how do I know where to go thats gonna please him."

God this conversation was getting more uncomfortable every second. for him. "I can tell you where it will please him the most but you shouldn't start there. You should just start by I guess just rubbing his back."

"Whats a hard on?"

"Well it's uhhh......its kind of hard to explain to somebody who doesn't have a...."

"He gets them lots, is that normal?"

"Excuse me?"

"When we kiss, he gets hard ons. He said he'd love me to touch him there but won't ever ask me he wants me to do that on my own if and when I want to."

"Thats a very good thing that he doesn't make you. But to answer your question, yeah its normal especially for a boy that age."

"He'll never make me do anything he respects me to much."

"And he knows you'll kick his ass."

Steph smiled than admitted to her dad, "no I think worse for him is knowing if he did that I'd cry." she then looked at her dad and hadn't made him blush in 2 minutes. "Whats after exploring? Is it sex then?"

"Not exactly, you just get a little more physical but not actually up to the sex part yet."

"Dad stop being vague, do you want him to lead me or do you want me to have the facts?" She called him on actions again.

"I just meant that there is more intimate touching of certain areas and not actually over the clothes."

Steph got pissed, he told her he wanted to talk but yet he was still pulling this I can't talk to her thing, "forget it dad I'll talk to Uncle Richie or Chris' older brother told him some things we'll figure it out." She stood up to leave disappointed in her dad for probably the first time in her life.

"Steph sit back down."

"Why so you can NOT tell me things some more?" She asked.

"Look this is hard for me okay. I've never had to do this before."

"I don't care your my dad, its your job to make sure I know this stuff so some boy doesn't come and fill my head with shit that I believe cos I don't know any better. Be my dad, protect me its what you're supposed to do." She yelled at him almost in tears. "Why is sex so hard for parents to talk about, you obviously had it I'm here."

"You're exactly right honey that is the exact reason that your here. But it's just hard for dads to talk to their kids especially their daughters about this kind of stuff. I want to tell you about just bare with me alright."

"Alright." She plopped down on the couch.

"Okay after the initial exploring you have there will be more but like I said before you are still clothed its just that his hand is going to be up your shirt or........" he closed his eyes not believing he was really telling her this. "Or in your pants." he said very softly almost hoping she didn't hear him.

"Seriously?" She asked not believing him.

"Would I make this up?"

"Maybe to try to shut me up."

"You're right." he smiled. "But I'm telling you the truth baby girl."

"Why wouldn't we just take our clothes off then if he's gonna have his hands in those places?"

"Because if you are lying there naked chances are things are going to move alot fast than you want them to."

"So keeping your clothes on makes sex not happen?" She asked softly.

"Kind of.....I mean I won't say that it wont happen but it's less likely to happen."

"Dad is it bad to like to feel tingly?"

"Not at all Steph. It's normal."

"Will it hurt?"

"You mean actually having sex?"

"Yeah."

"It may the first couple of times until you get used to it. The first time your mom and I were together I think it did." He couldn't believe he just told his daughter that but Dot told him to be honest.

"Was she a virgin?"

"No she wasn't."

"We're you?"

"Far from it Steph but if I could go back and redo my first time I would. I wish it could have been with your mom."

"How will I know its ok to have sex with him?"

"When you have a ring on your finger."

"Dad!"

"I'm just kidding Steph." he smiled now seeing a young woman instead of his little girl. "You'll know when it's time."

She rolled her eyes, "That doesn't help."

"When you get to that point in your relationship and you are comfortable enough with each other to get completely naked in front of each other you will be ready."

"Thats a long way from now." Steph admitted more to herself but Jon heard.

"That's what I want to hear. I don't want you to rush into anything because it only takes a second mess up."

"Dad I want to be on birth control when the time is right."

"That's something to talk to your mom about because i think there are a few different risks with them."

"Will you object to it though?"

"Not if you take all the risks into consideration. I want you safe."

"But we're Catholic?"

"Yeah."

"We're not supposed to use it remember?"

"And were not supposed to have sex before marriage either are we?"

"Um. Got me on that one." She laughed. "So what do you and mom use?"

"Now? We don't use anything but before I always used a condom and she was on birth control back in the 80's but stopped taking it."

"Two methods?" Steph asked. "Isn't that a bit overkill?"

"Not really, I mean back then we weren't ready for a family."

"So do we have to use t?"

"It's better to be safe than sorry but like I said talk to your mom first."

"Ok anything else I should know?

"Not that I can think of. Do you have any other questions?

"Whats a blow job?"

"It's oral sex." he told her hoping that would work.

"Talking during sex?"

"It would be kind of hard to do that." he laughed.

Dot then came in to save the day. "Alright Steph its bedtime. You can talk to dad more tomorrow."

"But mom," Steph starts.

"Thank you." Jon breathed a sigh of relief.

"Don't but mom me, if you don't' get your cute little butt upstairs Chris won't be stopping by tomorrow." Dot threatened.

"Ok thanks for the talk dad gotta go." Steph kissed her dad on the cheek and ran upstairs.

"Did she drill you?"

"God yes"

"What question did I save you from answering?" She smiled leaning against him.

"What's a blow job."

"Oh she's bad, definitely my daughter." Dot laughed.

"Yeah no doubt." Jon joked.

Dot laughed and straddled Jon's lap. "Exactly how were you planning on explaining what a blow job is?"

"I don't have a damn clue."

"Hey I wanna hear this I think it'd be funny."

He snorted leaning back on the couch. "Thanks for the confidence babe."

"Come on baby lets go up to bed I'll hold you make you feel better."

"I don't think anything will make me feel better after that talk."

"Oh come on." Dot smiled and took his hand.

He stood up off the couch not even wanting to go upstairs because the last thing he even wanted to think about right now was sex. But he did follow her up to the bedroom because he could definitely use some sleep.

When the got into the bedroom, Dot smiled at him and took him in her arms. "how'd it feel Jon? Doesn't it feel good knowing you are helping your child develop and grow?"

"Yeah it does." he smiled placing his hand on her hips. "For the first time I actually saw her as a young woman and not my little girl."

"She's so beautiful and what I see when I look at her I see such amazing innocence. Do you remember what it was like when this was exciting and made your insides twist?" She smiled rubbing her hand up his back to his shoulders.

"I do and it still does." And normally it did work for him but tonight it just wasn't helping at all.

"You want a back massage."

"Sure, make me forget about this day please."

"Ok baby take your shirt off pants too if you want your legs massaged." Dot smiled moving into the bathroom to get some massage oil.

He did as she said and for the first time in years he wasn't hard just by thought of a massage. But how was Dot going to respond to that. Would she be disappointed in him for not having a hard on when she was giving him a massage? He didn't want to chance it so he went over to the dresser and grabbed a pair or short but left the shirt off.

When Dot walked out and saw Jon in shorts she raised and eyebrow at him and then crawled on the bed again on top of him sitting on his butt. "So what do you want to smell like? Cologne or vanilla?"

His head rested on the pillow that was wrapped up in his arms. "Doesn't matter."

"Well since I get to sleep with you you're gonna smell like I want." Dot smiled and put a little RSVP massage oil on her hands and started running her hands on his back softly.

The familiar fragrance flowed under Jon's nose an he raised his head slightly. "Are you putting cologne on me?"

"No." She smiled. Then reached down and kissed a spot on his neck that always made him smile.

"Then why does that smell like RSVP?"

"Because I have connections." She laughed and kissed his neck again.

"I'm not even gonna ask." he smiled putting his head back on the pillow enjoying her touch.

"Ken did it for me. Created massage oil cos I love the cologne so much."

"I'll have to thank him next time I see him."

"You know what this cologne does to me." She smiled digging her fingers into his sore muscles.

"What baby?" He groaned into the pillow at the pressure she put on him, it felt good getting the extra attention to his back tonight.

"Like you don't know." Dot deepened her massage. "Do you have any idea how turned on I get thinking of you being my co parent with the kids."

"How much?" he muttered into the pillow. Her hands felt like heaven when she moved them over his back putting pressure on the spots that were tight and he didn't want her to stop anytime soon. The longer she did that the less likely she would actually want sex.

"Completely. Jon all I've wanted for years is to share this with you." She whispered. Her hands getting deeper into his muscles. She quickly put just a little more massage oil on and kept going into his muscles. She knew his back had been bothering him for the last few days.

"Baby will you do this until I fall asleep?"

"No baby I wanna love you. Don't' you wanna love me baby?"

"You are loving me Dot." he smiled.

"Seriously Jon, I wanna be wrapped around you so tight."

"I can't." he told her softly still embracing the pillow under his head.

"Why baby?" She smiled moving her hands down over his ass to the back of his thighs.

"I just can't do it tonight."

"Ok." Dot said softly knowing that Jon is being overly dramatic about having to talk to his daughter about sex but oh well she'd still get over it.

He could tell by the tone of her voice, even though she spoke softly, that she wasn't happy. "It's nothing personal baby it just that when I think about sex all I'm seeing is Steph and Chris just rolling around."

"What about you and I rolling around? We've been doing that a hell of a lot longer."

"I know that." A smile came across his face then he laughed. "And if you recall us rolling around was the reason I had this talk."

"Exactly so we should do it again." She smiled at him, leaning down and kissing the small of his back and nibbling just a little bit.

Trying to block out what she was doing he started thinking back to some of the questions Steph had asked and wondered if he should tell his wife or let their daughter tell her.

Dot licked his spine which was the one area of Jon's body he couldn't deny reacting to.

His hips moved down towards the bed as his upper body moved up just slightly. Damn if this woman wasn't trying her best to get him preoccupied.

"Why are you ignoring me, you know I like my attention." She said moving down and kissing her way down the back of his legs.

"How in the hell can I ignore you when you do that?" he joked.

"I don't know but I'm feeling neglected." She rubbed his calves deeply while reaching down and nibbling on his lower back again.

"Not neglected baby.......very much appreciated."

Dot finally moved and rolled onto her back. "Appreciate me baby, I need kisses."

Jon was still on his stomach but moved over closer to her and positioned himself so that his arm rested on the bed at her side. "Just kisses?"

"NO but thats a good place to start."

"Greedy." he laughed leaning into kiss her.

Dot put her hand in his hair and pulled him closer, when the kiss ended she looked at him, "MINE"

"Mmmm hmmm it says so on our marriage certificate."

Dot pulled him on top of her and kissed him deeply wrapping her arms around him and played with his back with one hand and his ass with another.

As they kissed, his hands wandered up her up thighs as she bent her knee allowing him to touch her even more. He was trying his best to focus but still wasn't nearly as hard as normal.

Dot could tell his mind was elsewhere. She finally stopped kissing him. "Goodnight Jon."

"I thought you wanted to be with me?"

"yes but you don't want to be with me. I can tell." She kissed him softly. "Goodnight honey."

"I do baby..."

"Jon come on, I've had sex with you enough times in my life to know when you're in the mood and you're not. Stop lying and just go to bed."

"It's not that I'm not I just can't fucking concentrate." he told her a little upset.

"Well then go to sleep." Dot told him and got out of bed and walked out of the bedroom.

He fell back on the bed and grabbed the pillow putting it over his face so that he could scream out his frustrations. The fact that his son and daughter were both growing up faster than he ever imagined and not being able to please his wife made for a pretty bad day.

Dot immediately walked to her dojo in the house. She wanted him, and he turned her down. A roundhouse kick to the bag made that hurt a little less, but very little. "How dare he say no." She kicked again. "He's so sexy in daddy mode and he told me no. Fuck him!" She kicked again and this time almost knocking the heavy bag into next week.

Chapter 47


Jon layed in the bed for about 15 minutes before getting up, he knew that Dot was upset and that should have given her time to cool down. He went downstairs and walked around then saw a light coming from the end of the hallway where Dot practiced her martial arts. When he got down there what he saw was his wife kicking the bag and at one point thought she was going to bring the roof down.

A part of him was almost afraid to go in but he had to talk to her, he wasn't going to bed mad and neither was she.

Dot didn't even notice the door open or Jon walking in, he did however know that the bag she was kicking and chopping at was taking the brunt of her anger.

"Glad you opted for the bag instead of me."

"Get out"

He walked over and took hold of the bag she was taking her frustrations out on so it wouldn't move. "Don't tell me to get the fuck out."

"I didn't swear." She kicked the bag and came within 2 inches of his face.

He didn't even flinch when she kicked but instead kept the intense look on his face. "Yeah but you told me to get out and I don't appreciate getting talked to that way."

"I don't appreciate getting denied because you had to be a parent." She kicked again this time with her left foot and it hit an inch above his head. "Fuck too high."

The muscles in his jaw clenched together letting her know that he was almost at his boiling point. "So your pissed we didn't have sex?"

"I'm pissed why we didn't have sex." She kicked straight at the bag which pushed the bag into Jon's chest.

"Yeah I know I couldn't get hard on you don't have to remind me." he pushed the bag away from him then went over to small bench in the corner that had a view of the river out from it.

Dot layed down and started stretching. "Jon your lack of a hard on is all on you. You are over thinking the fact you're a parent. God forbid your responsible for something your sperm created. Now that you've been a parent when its difficult we'll never have sex again?"

"You don't get it Dot and you won't until you're a dad."

"Oh get the fuck over it. You're a dad I'm a mom do you not think its hard for me to know my daughter wants to do to some guy what I want to do to you most nights. It is Jon but its called growing up and our kids are doing that if we like it or not." She stood up bending at the waist and touching the floor.

"But I'm supposed to protect you guys that's my job as a husband and dad. I just feel like if she's out there making out with some guy I'm not doing my job. I know it sounds as dumb as hell but that's the way I feel."

"Fine its the way you feel I'm going to take a shower." She started walking out of the room.

"That's it? You're just walking away?"

Dot turned around and glared at him. "What do you want from me?"

"I want you to tell me how you do it. I mean our kids are growing up and it doesn't seem to affect you like it does me."

"Because Jon I see it every day, I've changed every diaper, wiped every snotty nose, bandaged every scraped knee. This is not something new for me, to you Stephanie kissing a boy is shocking to me - this is the 3rd boy I've seen her kiss." She told him like it is, hoping it didn't sound too much like she was resentful of him but she wanted and needed him to understand the difference in them as far as parents go.

"See you got to do all of that I missed it. As gross as it is I would have given anything to be here to change diapers and wipe noses but I couldn't. Do you know how hard it was looking at the pictures you sent me of Steph and Jesse when they were little? I had to see first steps and hear first words on video and even then it wasn't first." he told her sadly hoping she could kind of see his side of it.

"Jon I'm sorry you missed out, but you chose that life."

"For you." he told her with a tear in his eye as he walked past her.

She grabbed his arm and turned him around, "Don't you dare. Don't you dare say getting into music was what I wanted. You may have fought so hard and pushed so hard for me but the choice was always yours. I'd love you no matter what."

"No the music was me but making money that was for you.....for us so we wouldn't have to struggle."

"Again Jon I call bullshit, you had made more than enough before we ever even got married in 89 long before we had Steph in 93, you kept at it because you have an inner drive that won't let you quit. When did it become so easy for you to lie to me?" Dot asked.

"I'm not lying Dot. Yeah I did have alot of money before we got married but it never would have got us this house or the apartment in NY or the house in the Hampton's."

"None of which I ever wanted. Don't you listen to your own songs. All I wanted was you. I never wanted the stars, I never shot for the moon, I like them right where they are. All I wanted was you." She ended her quoting and smiled. "Sound familiar."

"Yeah." replied softly looking down at the floor. She was right all the years while he did it for his family a part of him just didn't want to stop.

"So I'm going to shower now." She then walked out and up to their room.

After she left he walked over to the bag that had taken a beating by his wife and kicked it himself. "You are so damn stupid Jon." He continued kicking until finally on one kick his foot hit so hard he heard something pop. "Damn it!" he winced limping out of the room to go and get an ice pack from the freezer. Once he got that he managed to get up the steps about 15 minutes later and hobbled into the bedroom to lie down.

Dot was already in bed when he came in. "What did you do?"

"Damn punching bag." he grumbled putting a pillow under his foot and resting the ice pack on it.

"Did it punch back?" She asked moving to look at his foot making sure nothing is broken.

"Would you believe me if I said yes?"

"NO but I'd smile at you because that's typical of my Jon." She smiled at him. "You don't look like you broke it." She then moved to sit down on her side of the bed again remembering she's mad at him.

"How do you know I didn't break it? It feels like somebody's stabbing it."

"Because I'm a trained professional breaker there are no bones broken that I can tell, keep the ice on it it'll feel better soon."

"I don't know it hurts pretty bad." he reached down picking the ice pack up then sat it back on his foot.

"Well then don't kick my bag anymore."

"Your fault." he mumbled.

"OH you big baby how is this my fucking fault I was up here in the shower fingering myself because you wouldn't."

"Because you pissed me...." he sat up straighter in the bed. "You really did that?"

"Yes I did and no I did not piss your anything" She told him.

"How did you do it?" he asked looking down on her.

"Same way I do when you're not home. Quick and to the point."

"Show me."

"No you don't deserve it tonight."

"Big baby." he smirked.

"Maybe you shouldn't' have been such a baby earlier and you would have been able to do that and so much more to me."

"Maybe I want to watch you."

"To bad, I've had my orgasm I don't need you for that anymore. Keep the ice on your foot, goodnight Jon." She said turning over, facing away from him and closing her eyes.

After getting told off by his wife and just thinking about what she had done in the shower he started to get turned on. "Now you start working."

Dot didn't even flinch at that, she knew his dick probably woke up to the idea of her pleasing herself but she stayed facing away and finally fell into sleep.