FLA 14

Chapter 38-B

Richie smiled. "I understand baby. I need to actually be home with Ava tonight but please know I'm serious. Is there anything else you want to know from me or would you rather I let you think."

"I would just like some time to think about everything you know."

"Ok beautiful. Call me in the morning ok?" Richie leaned in and kissed her softly.

"I will" she replied softly kissing him but on the inside she was about to scream.

Richie smiled softly hoping he didn't freak her out as he left her to think as he got back in his truck going home to his daughter.

Once he left, Hannah went up to her room and took a well deserved shower only to think about what Richie had just
laid out on the table. She really did like him but a part of her knows what Dot goes through with Jon when he's away.

"Am I ready for that?"

After stepping out of the shower, she grabbed a pair of shorts and a tshirt and went back down to her living room. She paced around the room trying to figure out what to do then it finally came to her. She would call the one person she knew that would help her. Hannah went over to the couch and picked up the phone calling one of her closet friends only hoping she was back from vacation with her husband.

As soon as Jon walked in the door he heard the phone ringing in the other room so answered while Dot went to check on the kids. "Hello"

"Hey Jon."

"Hi." he replied a little hesitant. "Who is this?"

"It's Hannah." she laughed. "Is Dot there?"

"Yeah she's here. Hold on a sec." He carried the phone into the other room where Dot was sitting with the boys watching cartoons. "Phone."

Dot kissed the boys on the head and got up and took the phone walking out of the room away from Jon. "Hello."

"Hey Dot! How was vacation?" she asked not wanting to bombard her with the news about Richie.

"OH Hannah it was amazing. The house was so beautiful. Breathtaking actually."

"Really? So did you and Jon make baby number 5?" she joked.

"Not likely, we are having no more rugrats." Dot smiled as she walked out onto the patio off of her and Jon's room.

"Good thinking, I don't think the world could handle another Jon." she laughed but then got a little quiet right after.

"Oh come on he's so sexy." Dot laughed. "So girl what's up? How are you and Richie?"

She curled her legs up under as she made herself comfortable because this would be a long talk. "Kind of strange actually."

"Why so? Talk to me girl." Dot loved having someone to talk to, Hannah was quickly becoming that someone.

"You know he was in LA for a month right?"

"Yeah he went to finish his treatment didn't he?"

"Yeah well he also came back with a little more news though. He said that Heather was in a treatment facility and he went to see her. Well to make a long story short she signed over custody to him."

"OH wow - he's got Ava? I'm so happy he's wanted his little girl back forever."

"He seemed really happy when he came back."

"OH Hannah he's wanted his little girl with him since day one. You're going to see a different Richie now."

"I think I already have." she replied softly thinking about what he said.

"He's such a good dad, he loves that little girl so much."

"I know he does, I can tell that the way his eyes light up when he talks about her."

"Its so cute isn't it. A guy with his child, especially a little girl is just sexy." Dot smiled thinking of Jon when he used to hold Steph and read her a book.

"Very much so." she smiled thinking of the day that Ava spent with them and how Richie was so loving with her.

"So what's on your mind."

"Dot I don't know what to do. Richie talked to me today and he asked me how serious I was about him."

"So what did you tell him?"

"That I did care about him but he wants that next step and I honestly don't know if I'm ready."

"What next step is he talking about?"

"Marriage or at least I think that's what he meant. He said he was tired of playing games and wanted to settle down."

"Wow." Dot said, she was relatively shocked.

"Yeah that was my first reaction." She stood up and walked into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water then walked outside on the deck to sit for a while. "I really do like him but that is huge Dot."

"That is huge. Pretty quick, how are you feeling towards him?"

"Like I said I do care about him and I do want a family but...." she stopped not wanting to sound rude about what she had always heard from Dot.

"But what?"

"Its just that I know what Jon puts you through when he's away and I don't know if I can deal with that."

"Hannah, some of that is rumor and most of that is history. Jon doesn't pull any of that anymore." Dot told her.

"He may not but what about Richie? I mean he got divorced for some reason."

"He got stupid one night but it wasn't what people thought. He got a blow job from a fan. The guys don't always realize when they do something their women might think is wrong."

"Are you serious? He actually did that while being married?"

"Yes but that was then this is now I'm sure he got over his stupidity. Some guys obviously don't thinking that oral sex
is cheating I think now he looks at it clearer." Dot answered and then realized she just told her something that Richie may not have.

"Dot what should I do?" She asked totally confused.

"you should not take anything I say about how Richie used to be as gospel. I can tell you that man is the most loyal and devoted man I've ever met."

"If you were in my position would you marry him though knowing what he has done?"

"If I was in your position I'd never take anyone else's word for what my man is like. I just told you something that I will probably get in a lot of troube for but seriously, I think you should talk to Richie and ask him what happened between him and Heather -you have every right to know the truth."

"Yeah but will he tell me the truth."

"Well there's the biggest truth of all right - if he won't do you want to marry him?" Dot challenged.

"I really do like him Dot but this whole rock star thing has me concerned."

"Sweetie they were rockstars when they were in their 20's now they are rock icons, they are over the stupidity for the most part."
"For the most part?" she chuckled. "That's not reassuring."

"Well Jon does stupid shit now but not in a bad way just kissing fans when he dances with them."

"Well yeah but that's part of the job right? I mean when you get right down to it you're the one he comes home to."

"True, and that's the biggest part of being their wife, honestly getting over that fear they'll go somewhere else. You have to have the confidence that he married you for a reason."

"You're a strong woman Dot I'll give you that." she smiled hoping she was half as strong as Dot was.

"It took a bit and sometimes I fall down in doubt, it takes confidence in your man."

"It doesn't hurt that he worships the ground you walk on either." she laughed.

"Sometimes." Dot laughed. "Sometimes he'd like to strangle me."

"I think that's a negative......I've watched him watching you before."

"He always has the look of whipped man." she smirked.

"He needs that look now." Dot says softly.

"What do you mean?"

"OH we are just having words having to do with the kids. Nothing big."

"You sure?" She asked hearing the tone in her voice and could tell that something was bothering her. "I'm here if you want to talk. God only knows you listened to me more than enough times."

"No we're good, its a bit awkward sometimes when they come home cos you have to re-adjust. Not sure if you'd have that problem or if you'd tour with him."

"Obviously I can't tour with him Dot. Who would help you keep the dojo organized?"

"Who knows." Dot laughed.

"Thanks for taking the time to listen to me ramble.....I owe ya one!" If there was one thing she hated it was bothering Dot but they had become really good friends lately. "And I hate to run but since somebody has had me working by myself these past few weeks I think I'm going to go stretch out on the couch and watch a movie. Maybe call Richie after my mind has cleared."

"Sounds good, talk to him he's good at that." Dot told her and then decided to take her own advice and talk to Jon too.

"Okay I'll talk to you later. Oh by the way when are you coming back to work?"

"I'll be back in tomorrow sometime."

"Alright I'll see you then. Bye!" After the call was over she put the phone back on the receiver and turned the tv only to think about Richie.


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While Dot was upstairs on the phone Jon took it upon himself to put the kids to bed leaving Stephanie downstairs watching a movie. He walked over and told her goodnight as he placed a kiss her on the forehead before going upstairs. He then took Romeo and Jake into Jake's bedroom and read them both a story until they fell asleep. Once they were out he pulled the covers up over Jake and kissed him on the cheek and picked up Romeo and put him into his bed doing the same thing. He walked by Jesse's room and wanted to talk but thought it would be best just to let him
be for a while. He continued walking until he reached the bedroom and saw Dot sitting outside on the patio relaxing,
so he walked out to join her.

Dot heard the bedroom door close and look up. "Hey honey."

"Hey." he replied softly sitting in the chair next to her not sure if she wanted to talk or just sit.

"Did you put the kids to bed?" Dot asked softly.

"They are safe and sound in bed except for Steph, she's watchin a movie."

"Which one?" Dot asked.

"I couldn't tell ya, but I think its one of those girly ones." he smiled.

"Watch her I've caught her trying to watch a few I question."

Jon arched a brow looking over toward her wondering exactly what kind of movies she was talking about. "Do I even
want to know?"

"Just some R rated movies, nothing absolutely horrible but I think she's a little too young for some explicit sex scenes."

"Yeah I know she is, but I think this one was on lifetime or something."

"oh ok." Dot reached over and took his hand. "Rough day huh?"
He sighed lying back in the chair a little comforted by her soft touch. "I would tell you that you have no idea, but I think you do."

"Yes I do Jon but its not easy and I imagine for you it was exceptionally hard because it was your first time."

Jon looked to her with saddness his normally cheerful blue eyes. "I'm sorry for making you do that for the past 15 yrs by yourself."

"Being a single parent sucks Jon. I think what was harder though is you doubting me today when you heard about how I'd raised them. That tore my heart out."

"I know it did and honest to god baby I didn't mean to."

"I hope at some point you stop doing that. Thats the kind of stuff that tears away at my trust in you."

"We have great kids Dot and its not because of me. It's because of you, I guess I just kind of took for granted that the kids were always well behaved and you never really had to punish them."

"They aren't perfect, by a long shot."

"Close enough baby and it's because of what you've done."

"I should have never even second guessed you earlier."

"No you shouldn't have because it made me want to knock you out."

A smile laugh came from his mouth as he sat up. "Thank you for not going on your instinct."

"So are you ever gonna want a spanking again?"

"I don't know." He stood up and walked over to the edge leaning onto railing. "I honestly don't think that after tonight i could enjoy it."

"Jon it can still be sexual for you again it'll just take time for you to understand that the spanking you gave Jesse is completely different than the ones I give you."

"I know but....I guess you won't have to do it for a while at least not until I get that image out of my mind."

"You know it'll help if you parent more than just once." She stood up and ran her hand on the small of his back.

"Yeah well lets just hope our kids don't get in any more trouble for a while, I don't want to do that anytime soon."

"There's other stuff to parenting Jon. Like tonight when you put them to bed, did you make Jake and Jesse take showers?"

"No, Jake said he had one earlier and I didn't exactly talk to Jesse."

"Ok Monday, Wed and Sat night Jake and Jesse take a bath, Stephanie takes a shower everyday and normally Romeo is Tues, Thurs and Sunday unless he does something that makes him all dirty."

"Can you write some of this stuff down? You know I can't remember it all."

"Yes you can, you know the lyrics to how many songs in your head you can learn how to be a full time dad."

"Maybe but not overnight Dot....." he paused looking out at the water. "I guess I should have been paying attention all these years instead of just some guy that came here a few times a year huh."

"Yep." She answered bluntly.

"Will you be here to help me if I need it?" He asked unsure exactly how to go from friend to dad over a few days.

"Yes, for a day or so."

"For a day or so?"

"Yeah then I'm gonna take that vacation." She reminded Jon.

"You know what you take that vacation babe." he told her bluntly. "I hope you have fun."

"Where's that attitude coming from? Don't you think I deserve some me time?" She called him on his tone.

"No, you deserve a vacation more than anyone."

"So what's with the attitude?"

"There is no attitude, I just told you to have fun on vacation. Am I not supposed to tell you that?" He asked a little confused because he didn't mean it to sound like he was being a smart ass.

"OH I thought I heard something in your voice like a challenge."

"Not at all, but I will tell you it's not as fun as you think it will be."

"Are you kidding me? A week of no one demanding and needing things all the time."

This woman had alot to learn and he was hoping to get the point across to her. "You think it's going to be great don't you?"

"I think sitting on a beach for a week or reading a book or taking a Karate class for myself will be awesome."

"Okay." he said softly shaking his head turning back toward the river front view.

"It only sounds nice."

"Why do you say that Jon? I know when you're away you have shows to do but its gotta be nice to be young an single and carefree knowing your family is being taken care of back home."

"You think so huh?"

"Yes I do why are you trying to talk me out of this."

After a few moments he finally turned back toward her. "Let me tell you how much fun I have on the road. The days I don't have shows I get to sit in a cramped hotel room with nothing to do while everyone else is out going to dinner and having dinner. On top of that since everyone is gone I get to sit and stare out the window and watch everyone else have fun."

"Why don't you just go with them?"

"Dot who am I am? Do you know what would happen if I went out? Nobody around me would get any peace."

"Don't make it sound like you're so abused, that's the life you chose."

"Yeah it is and I'm not complaining, I love what I've done with my life but without you and the kids around it's kind of pointless."

"So what makes it so bad to want to go sit on a beach by myself?"

"You don't get it do you? "

"not really."

"Look you know what it's like when I'm gone, but you always have the kids with you. And this past week we were together but the kids stayed here. It's a completely different thing when you will be away from all of us."

"I guess I'll have to find out huh? I think 29 yrs without a week to myself is enough to want a vacation. Even when we didn't have the kids I worked while at home and on my vacations I'd go see you so this will be different and relaxing."

"You keep telling yourself that baby." he smiled. "I'm not going to stop you from going."

"Good." Dot smiled. "Wanna cuddle with a naked woman?"

"You know one that's not pissed at me?"

"The only woman you had damn well better be cuddling up with." Dot took her tank top off as she walked into the bedroom naked from the waist up.

"Do you think it's safe to do this right now?"

"Why not we're home in our bedroom?" She turned around looking at him confused still half naked.

"I just mean the kids haven't been asleep that long, what if they come in?" He asked still enjoying the view of his wife still standing there and wanting nothing more than to just hold her.

"Baby I'm not saying we're gonna do anything I asked you if you wanted to hold a naked woman. Besides the kids don't come in without knocking. Jake walked in on something once and since then he won't try again."

"What exactly did he walk in on?"

"Me, my vibrator and daddy on the phone." Just that image alone made him hard and he stiffled a moan. "How....I mean.."

"What do you mean how? You know how many times we've had phone sex."

"I know that." he laughed. "I mean where you actually uhhh.....you know....where you actually using it when he came in?"

"OH yes." Dot laughed taking off her lounge pants and panties putting her clothes in the closet and then getting into bed. "you coming to bed."

"And he didn't ask questions?" he asked a little surprised as he took off his shirt and shorts then climbed into bed.

"He kind of got confused cos I was moaning when he walked in, after you and I finished I had to go talk to him."

"I bet that was fun."

"Yes this is the stuff you should have to do. Explain to a 6 yr old why mommy was moaning when daddy was on the phone."

"I wouldn't even know where to start."

"I didn't either kind of made it up as I went."

"Has asked anything since that?"

"No the beauty of a 6yr old they forget quick."

"Good thing." he laughed then turned toward her as he was sitting in the bed. "I think I need to have a talk with Jesse though, I mean when he decides to talk to me again anyway."

"What are you going to talk to him about?" Dot asked Jon.

"Girls."

"He's into girls that much now?"

Jon sighed resting his head back on the headboard. "More than you know."

"So tell me, this is the beauty of having two parents, I don't normally have someone to talk to about this stuff."

"Well he kind of told me why he didn't tell you the truth about where he was today."

"Is it something I have to kick his ass over." Dot asked hoping that Jon handled it like a dad not a friend.

"No I'll get this one." he smiled. "Not exactly a mom area."

"What the hell was he doing?"

"He uhhh.....well when you called his hands were up around this area." He pointed toward her chest as he spoke.

"My 13 yr old was feeling a girl up?" Dot asked astonished and then looked at Jon and asked, "And why could you only point and not talk about my chest."

"It's kind of uncomfortable talking about those when you are talking about your kid touching them for the first time." he joked

"Jon you've gotta be strong and honest with him, if you want me to I'll have the sex talk with him, I already did with Steph."

"No, this is my part to deal with not yours."

"And how are you gonna handle it? Pointing to things?" Dot asked leaning up on her elbow looking at him. "Jon this is one conversation that needs to be 1000% open with them. Steph asked me some really awkward stuff like what does a boys hard on feel like for them? Are you gonna be able to answer stuff like that honestly with him."

"Yeah I mean its easier for me to tell him that than you. I've gone through all the awkward teenage crap already."

"Did you hear what I said?" She asked getting annoyed with his I know everything attitude that he normally reserves for his day job, parenting the kids was normally her forte.

"Yes, you asked if I would be able to handle the awkward questions. And I will do the best that I can Dot, but if he ask me a female question how do I do that? I mean what did you do when Steph asked you what a hard on felt like for a guy?"

"I told her what you've told me, like it was a rock hard muscle but not in a bad way. That's what I'm saying baby have you asked me enough and do you know enough about the female perspective on things to answer him. I'm not saying I doubt you can talk to him but can you parent him in this regard not just be a rockstar."

"What the hell Dot? I'm not just some dumb guy or something, I do know a few things." he responded rather offended. "I want to be a dad and talk to my son about the one thing that should be told to a son by his father and you don't think I can do it."

"I didn't say that, I fear you'll be his friend instead of telling him some of the shit he has to know, like he MUST ALWAYS wear a condom, no exceptions until he's married. Is that something you'd automatically stress with him? I'm so damn sorry if I offended you Jon but its not like I've got a lot of history of you being here and doing the rough shit to go off of."

"Dorothea I can assure that when I talk to him the condom issue will come up. There is absolutely no excuse for him not to use one and if he doesn't have better damn well step away from the girl, I don't care if she would be on the pill or something."

"If you say so Jon. Go talk to him then."

"I don't want to right now, I'm letting him cool down a little bit. He's got that Bongiovi temper you know."

"Really - wonder where that comes from. Oh by the way - he's already started puberty."

"I'm sure he has Dot, he's 13."

"Well I almost made you get on the 1st jet home from Japan."

"Why what happened? Did he get a hard on and mommy didn't know what to do."

"Mommy knows what to do with Daddy's hard ons. But no. Our son came out of the shower one night and told me he has hair on his balls and why is it there?"

"Fuck. He's definately at that age. What did you tell him?" he asked curiously.

"I told him the truth, Daddy has it too."

"Is there anything else I need to know before I talk to him?"

"I've heard his voice crack once or twice." Dot warns him.

"I remember that embarrassing shit all to well."

"Ok this is just the curious wife asking, what else happens to a boy during puberty. I could look it up online but its easier asking you."

"Aside from the cracking voice, being a walking hard on and having no idea why your body is doing that for no reason, and the hair growing in the damdest places?" he smiled.

"Yeah, is that it?"

"Pretty much accept the locker room shame." he laughed.

"Huh?" She asked laying down hoping Jon takes the hint and lays down with her.

"Well this really doesn't happen until a few years later but you know if you are the small guy of the group and you stand beside a guy that is lets say well endowed...." he laughed lying back on the bed propping himself up on his elbow. "It can be intimidating."

"IS that where the 2nd grade comment came from?" She smiled cuddling up on his chest.

"Partially.....you should have seen some of those guys." he laughed.

"Yeah and where are they now?" Dot smiled running her hand on his chest

"Couldn't tell ya." he smiled knowing that she wasn't as mad at him as she was earlier. This time they were spending together tonight actually made him start to feel closer to her, like he could talk to her about anything. "So what about girls? I mean what do they have to go through accept for that monthly thing that puts guys through hell?"

"Trust me baby it puts us through hell too, our breasts grow, we get hair down there and on our legs, and emotions do everything all at once, we start thinking about boys in a completely different way. For me it was a 180 in like a day I swear, one day I thought they were ucky the next day I wanted to touch them."

"Really? That fast?"

"it seemed that way to me. I remember playing tag football with boys an not wanting to touch them then it seemed like the next week I wanted to grab the flags and miss." Dot smiled.

"Wish I knew you then."
"At least with guys its a little spread out though, not everything gets us at once."

"Oh I was naughty back then." Dot smiled. She then started rubbing her hands on Jon everywhere within easy reach.

"I just had to touch and feel how different thier body was than mine."
A sexy grin spread across his face as she touched him. "You did?"

"OH yeah everywhere, I probably left more boys with hardons than I care to remember." She smirked.

Jon bit down on his bottom lip watching her. "I bet you did."

"I was naughty, then I met you and reformed." She grinned.
Jon snorted softly. "Bullshit."

"Hey when I met you it wasn't just about touching anymore."

"Really?" Without thinking he started moving his fingers over her forearm that was moving on chest. "And what was it about?"

"How the touching made us feel. Before you it was all curiosity, if I touch here what happens? If I kiss here what does that make happen? With you it wasn't about the mechanics it was about feeling that with you, I wanted you to make my panties wet, I knew how to do it on my own but it was so much better when you did it."
"So you felt that way to?"

"Yes. That's when I started to realize, things with you were different than all the rest. Sex with you felt different."

"Felt incredible." he smiled thinking back to the first time they were together.

She smiled and reached up to give him a quick kiss. "Night baby, I love you."

He kissed her back then put his head down on his pillow so that he could still see here "Night Dot." Jon noticed her left hand comfortably resting on the bed and his hand automatically went to hers and began to gently move his finger over her wedding ring. "I love you baby."

"I love you." She kissed his chest awkwardly. "Welcome home."

A soft smile made its way across his face hearing her say that so he moved over so that his head was on her pillow and they were almost nose to nose. "Mind sharing your pillow?"

Dot was half asleep by this point. "Only with my Jonny."